Depression and anxiety

Depression and anxiety are something I’ve battled for a better part of my teens and adult years. Something that never really goes away; you just learn how to cope and live side by side. Some days, weeks, or even months are absolutely awesome, and then sometimes, with or without warning, you’re in the depths of sadness and fear. So, how do you find the drive to pull yourself out of that hole? Sometimes it is almost impossible, and it seems there is no end in sight. Realizing and accepting that you’re in the midst of an episode is even bigger to face.

When the journey with anxiety starts…again

Starting this journey has been very hard and something I’m all too familiar with. You doubt, reason away your time and plan, and lose your drive and motivation to keep going out of fear and failure. I’m definitely here, 14 months in, and I’m feeling like shit for it. But here I am once again, trying to push myself to the creative side of me I love and dream about being. Well, I’m not giving up, and you shouldn’t either. I want a life full of passion, drive, and happiness. I can visualize what I want, now I need to really start living by it; each one of us can do this. We all deserve to be happy.

“Yes, I am here, but I will not stay here.”

When I find myself in one of these ‘lapses,’ I find that you need to give yourself a few days of repeating: “Yes, I am here, but I will not stay here.” It is ok to need a few days of doing nothing before you feel like you even have the energy to start this process again. It does take a decent amount of energy, physically and mentally, to come out of a depression or anxiety episode. Once you feel that you are done staying in this state, I suggest creating a plan. Even if it’s two steps, at least, it’s a start. I feel just a little bit more motivated once I write it down. It’s a way to show yourself that there is a way out toward the happier side of life.

Take 15 minutes a day for yourself

Then work on it each day, even if it’s just for 15 minutes. Eventually, the time you take to pull yourself out of self-destructing mode will lengthen, and the light will start to appear. Unfortunately, there is no set amount of time it will take. Some days will feel so uplifting and perfect, others will feel like you are taking a step back.

Just keep that higher self you see of yourself fresh in your mind. This is your motivation. Eventually, the smile will come back, and the laughter you thought was gone for good will show up unexpectedly. A good cry session is a great way to start (don’t knock it until you’ve tried it) you would not believe how much energy you can release, good and bad.

Start to visualize and create

Creating a list helps me visualize/create and helps my goals come to fruition easier. And… sometimes, it just makes me more overwhelmed. Every day is different. So, if the idea of a list creates a sense of panic right away, then back away 😉. Maybe start with setting an intention for the day or the next day or week. Progress is progress. Taking it one day at a time can be just enough to start the change.

Cleansing your space is a good way to reset to mental energy

I also find a good cleansing of your space with sage, at least for me, seems to help lift the heaviness. My family is not a fan of the smell, I just don’t get it. I love the SMELL, I take it all in. I usually hit my whole house. Wishing the positive energy to stay and anything not loving to leave. It’s important that you believe what you are doing/saying deep down. The process of smudging really can move you into a lighter space mentally. It’s a restart button for me, like the heaviness that has engulfed me is now breaking apart. From this moment on, it is going to be different. If you just go through the motions, the true effects and mindset you must shift to will not happen. You can also take 5 minutes each more to smoke cleanse yourself and say a little meditation prayer to help set an intention for the day.

Spiritual awaking books that help me with anxiety

One other thing I found is reading self-help or spiritual awaking books also helps. I’m able to see things through someone else’s perspective, and that can totally change the way we view things in our daily life and release the hold this negative state has on us. One of my go-to books is The Enchanted Life, it talks about how we lost our way of viewing the world with awe and exploration. How just going through the motions has affected our general well-being and created this negative energy that we seem to not be able to shake. Here is another one on anxiety that’s a quick and easy read but has lots of good information.

I’ll end with wishing you luck on your journey through this, you will make it to the other side, happy and full of life. I hope each one of you finds some inner peace today. ✌🌈✌🌈

*As always, please reach out to someone if you are feeling the heaviness is just too much. There are so many great resources and people that love and care. Moments of defeat do not last forever, and there is a light that shines within you.

Wishing you love, light and inner peace babes ✌🌈✨💜